Saturday, February 16, 2008

loneliness strikes...

this 2008 valentines season was the saddest occasion I've ever had...

i woke up almost 10'am ate breakfast and watched Grey's anatomy when all of a sudden i have thought how lonely i am on a valentines day while almost all people are having the time of their life being with their special someones or loved ones, there i was all alone watching dvd all by myself...


and as i thought crazy ideas...

..i dropped by at a store to buy these:




















yes! i drank.. and add to that was i smoked!! yes... i smoked!!

these diverted my loneliness into another..


but after doing it.,, I didn't get anything, just headache, dizziness and rashes!

I'm not proud of what I did but if ever that in the next valentines day, things will still be the same, no wonder that I'd still be counting on these things...


i feel so alone,

nobody loves me...

no one has even bothered to comfort me..



it's just so sad being me

Thursday, November 22, 2007

slipped away...

I miss you so bad
I don't forget you and oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
I didn't get around to kiss you Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me
I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now you are gone
There you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Somewhere your not coming back

mi grand papz passed away wednesday morning last week..
i'll miss every bit of him..

i used to be his little girl..




love you grampapz..



bye 'tay!!

Saturday, November 03, 2007

heads uP!!!

school's back!!

Monday, September 10, 2007

of the legal age..

thanks to all who've greeted nung 18th koh..
thanks to all that have been part of this rollercoaster yet wonderful life..


many more years to come with you guys..




godbless the fireflies!!!

Friday, August 17, 2007

do you want to know the truth?

"a true intelligent person, doesn't know how to hurt other people"

-para sakin.,, mssbi mong inteligent ang isang tao kapag iniisip nya ng mabuti bawat salitang lumalabas sa bibig nya.., careful enough not to utter words that would make others break-

hindi ako intelligent na tao, i bLiv nga na sa daldal kong ito.. madami dami na rin akong nasaktan na tao.,, madami akong nasasabi na nakakaoffend (and i ask forgiveness for that..sorry poh).. pero sana alam din ng ibang tao (u knw sna hu u r) that im fragile enough to break.. nasasaktan di ako with the things you say.. it doesnt mean i laugh at it,.. eh im happy.. may mga nasasabi kayo na sinasakyan ko lang pero di nyo alam dinamdam ko pala yun.. ganun na talaga ako.. sna lng nagpapaka intelligent naman kayo para di kayo nakakasakit..kasi ako im trying my best to be intelligent and i try my best not to hurt others..

kya naman.,, ikaw?? do you consider yourself intelligent??

nursing is...

nursing is an ART...

nursing is a PROFESSION...

nursing is a SCIENCE...


eto pah..

nursing is CARING...




eto pinaka malaupet...

nursing is EXPENSIVE...

>>daaaang!! namumulubi nko<<

i miss this...

ano nga ba ang blog? (tanong sakin ng classmate ko)

sinagot ko naman... ang blog is an online journal... --diary.

DIARY. hm., private thing daw ang diary kaya nawiweirduhan sya sa blogs.

baket nga ba nagblog si sheenskie??

sagot ko sa classmate ko:: "pag may naisip kasi ako tapos feel kong i share sya sa public, ngbbLog ako.. pag subrang happy or di kaya pag depressed ako, ngbbLog ako... nkakakuha ako ng SENSE OF RELIEF everytime ngpopost ako ng blog.. (being an only child, and being always left home alone) wala akong nkakausap, mahirap for me pag kinikeep ko deep within ang mga thoughts and ideas.. kya nagbblog ako..



kayo? baket naman kayo nagbabasa ng blogs???

sOoper tagal bgo nkapag blog..

andami ko naiisip..
pag sumasakay ako sa jeep.,, may naiisip ako.,, pag baba ko.. nakakalimutan ko na,,

¤¤isa lang ito sa mga naisip ko.,,, minsan natatatanong ko sa sarili ko, "bakit kailangan nating mansisi?" may it be in form of things, happenings, tao or kahit ano.

>>example#1:: pag nadapa ang isang tao... sisisihin nya ang bagay na nakadapa sa kanya... eh baket hindi kaya nya sisihin na lang ang sarili nya diba, cause he/she's stupid enough para di makita ang bagay na makakadapa sa kanya.

>>example#2:: pag na late ang studyante... sisisihin nya ang traffic.. eh baket hindi nya sisihin ang sarili nya dahil hindi nya inagahan ang pag alis sa bahay para sana hindi sya natraffic dba?

>>example#3:: pag nabasa ng ulan ang group project na pinaghirapan ng husto... sisihin mo yung ulan?? eh baket di mo sisihin ang sarili mo dahil hindi mo iningatan ang project nyo.,,, sana hindi mo sya hinayaang mabasa..

>>example#4:: pag di ka naka attend ng happening.. sisisihin mo ang ate mong may inutos sayo or ang nanay mong may pinagawa sayo.. eh baket hindi kaya sarili mo ang sisihin mo.. dpat binilisan mo kilos para sana natapos mo ng maaga ang mga pinagagawa sayo at sana naka punta ka pa sa happening..

¤¤naiisip ko.,, mahirap ba talaga umamin sa mga sarili nating pagkakamali?? kailangan pba na may sisihin tayo?? do we get a sense of fulfillment kapag nansisisi tayo ng tao/bagay/pangyayari?? hindi ba naten kayang disiplinahin ang sarili natin para hindi na tayo magkaroon ng REGRETS.. im not saying this to boast ah,.. di naman ako perpektong tao.. oo.,, may mga nagawa ako sa past na sobrang pinagsisihan ko... pero matapang kong sasabihin ngayon (sa lahat ng nagbabasa ng blog ko) na kahit minsan.,, hindi ko sinisisi sa ibang bagay/tao/pangyayare ang mga bagay na nangyare.. tinanggap ko ang mga mali as mali ko.,, at ang kasalanan, as kasalanan ko...

hope na maging eye opener ang blog post kong ito.,, na hindi lahat ng bagay na panget at mali ay kailangan nating isisi sa iba.. minsan kailangan nating maging matapang para aminin na atin ito... ikahiya mo man yun.,, sayo pdin yun, so bket mo pa ikakahiya dba.. aminin mo na lang...

Sunday, June 17, 2007

happy father's day!!!


let me share to you this... in the movie "PARENT TRAP" where two sisters switch places, with a plan to reconciliate their separated parents. hallie and annie lived apart. hailey with her dad and annie with her mom. see., the point here is.. when they switched places.. annie got the chance na makasama yung dad nya na hindi nya pa nakasama since her baby days dahil nga naghiwalay yung parents nila... picture this: Annie is in the car while her dad drives her off to their house... (remember: its annie's first time to see his dad!)


dad: why do you keep on saying DAD at the end of every sentence?
annie(pretending to be hallie): I'm sorry. I didn't realize I was doing it, Dad.
annie(pretending to be hallie): Sorry, Dad.
annie(pretending to be hallie): Do you want to know why I keep saying "Dad"? the truth?
dad: because you miss your old man so much, right?
annie(pretending to be hallie):exactly! because in my whole life.,, I mean for the past eight weeks... I was never able to say the word "Dad". Never, not once! And if you ask me, I mean... A dad is an irrreplaceable person in a girl's life. Think about it. There's a whole day devoted to celebrating father's. Just imagine someone's life without a father? -- never buying father's day card, never sitting on their father's lap... neverbeing able to say "Hi Dad!" or "What's up Dad?" or "Catch you later, Dad!" I mean baby's first words are always "dada" aren't they?
dad: let me see if i get this -- You miss being able to call me Dad?
annie(pretending to be hallie): yeah! i really have!!

i really cried in that part!!! i guess, i also missed my own father. i am now 17 and i swear maybe half of it was spent without him beside me. (my dad works out of the country and i only see him really once in a while...) i love my PAPA so much!! i always text him and tell him how much i am thankful that he's my father but he'll just say its "DRAMA!!!" (my Papa really is such a funny guy.,, siguro sa kanya ko namana yung pagiging jolly and pagiging joker ko!) he was not able to graduate from college that's why he tries his best to let me in to the university and finish my studies kasi sabi nya "para hindi ka matulad sakin" but hey... wala na kong mas gugustuhin pang tularan kundi si Papa... he works hard for everything. i look up to him... he's just the best for me... ( can't believe i'm crying right now while posting this! darn!! ) i remember, i cried upon blowing the candle during my 7th birthday (reason: cause namimiss ko si papa) and my papa's not there. i also once read this message from papa telling my mom that "Ma, kahit ako'y makalbo pa, kahit ako'y tumanda na at ikaw ay mabungi na kahit wala ka ng ipin.. mahal na mahal kita!" (aaaww.. sweet!!!)



we look like each other... as in... suuuuper!!! darn!!! (nose plang... i kinda hate it at times!!! laki kasi... Love you Pa!!!!

excess: a classmate sent this one,.. its very nice
wherever your dad may be at this moment, i know he was able to influence you to be as strong and determined like HIM!!!! (its so true!!!)


Friday, May 11, 2007

whats hot??

there are new posts on the other blog.. please come see it!! thanks!!!
http://es_eich22.blogs.friendster.com/my_weblog/

Sunday, May 06, 2007

sTeAdy Lang 'noH

sCeNe: Two HouRs of SitTing ANd bRowsing insiDe A coLd coLd InTerNet sHop
feEling:
so superr need to get a bathroom, im so gonna need a bLadder bReak!!

im cuRrEntLy at This InTernet shop, and it so fReakiN' coLd.. naKashorTs kaya ako.. anLamig gRabe!! pero ok Lng.. at Least tHeRe's nO mOre Nid To tHink aBout NurSing HisTories, Caring, and MicROorganisms!!!

Livin' the Life.
Luvin it.
TakiNg a BrEak.


it's oUr TurN to fEeL The sEaSon!!!
it's sUmMeRR!!!!

Saturday, April 28, 2007

what goes around comes around

some call it karma but ...

...in Newton's third law it is "for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction"

the statement means that in every interaction, there is a pair of forces acting on the two interacting objects. the size of the forces on the first object equals the size of the force on the second object. the direction of the force on the first object is opposite to the direction of the force on the second object. forces always come in pairs - equal and opposite action-reaction force pairs. (okay enuf of the physics!!!)

this only explains why everytime we're happy, we smile...
when we feel dead tired, we sleep...
when we study, we get high grades...
if we persevered, we get rewarded...
everytime we're sad... we cry!!

[LAST WEEK]

{monday}
i was so freakin' out of my system.
i don't know what happened but i marked my uniform with my highlighter pen.
im super damn engot (plus the whole day i was suffering from a really bad abdominal cramps!)
can things get any worse....? wait until the next!!
{tuesday}
is an RLE day.. all were shocked upon the announcement that were gonna have the graded return demo after the break!!!
as a known engot person that i am, i am not able to review well and memorize the procedure.. (i will not elaborate more on this... just let me take this space to say sorry chay! masakit pa ba pgkka IM ko sau?) and thats the whole story.. i got a 76 for that.. just imagine whatta disappointment it is for me.. i was very saddened.. =c
(i was suffering diarrhea the whole day, i just drank medicine para hindi istorbo while in class --gosh! t'is so humiliating ha!!)
{wednesday}
this day... wala naman atang nangyaring matino... nyahaha... just skip this day!!
{thursday}
i luv this day!! hahaha.. eto na ang equal and opposite reaction ng lahat ng kamalasang naganap sa mga nakaraang araw!! eto yung pinaka gusto kong part!!! i went to school very relaxed and prepared kasi alam ko na may graded return demo, so sa bahay pa lang memorized ko na ang procedure. kaya nung pagdating ko ng school, all i did was to refresh my memory and bug 'em up!! haha.. confident ako that time kasi i knew that i reviewed... and im prepared!! so our turn came and i performed well, (except for some mistakes kasi di naman maiiwasan yun, la namang taong perfect eh) and yun nga.. i only got a 93 for that, pero ok na rin yun. that 93 is just enough to fill in the 76 that i got from the previous performace! i am so shit happy!!
{fRidaY}

my-turn-to-report day!!! i reported about Hepatitis A, B, and C viruses... okay, di ko na i eexpand pa.. baka di makarelate ang iba!!! basta yun.,

{saturday}
were supposed to have a role-playing type of report.. all 4 groups prepared kaso lang istir si mam... indianera.. haha.. our clinical instructor was asked to look over something kaya she is not able to attend to our make up class.. so walang nangyari!!! this day, natulog ako at 3:30pm sabi ko i was just gonna nap... i woked up it was already 7:30pm na.. whatta!! grabeng nap!! and that is why up until now (1:53am na!) e gising pa rin ako --doing this blog and stuffs!!

so to sum it all up... anong kinalaman ng Newton's Third law sa week na 'to??

ganito ksi un... diba on the first half of the week i had blood-sucking events na parang ikakamatay ko na, i had diarrhea tapos i got 76 pa.. yun yung first object.. at yung second object naman na nagpa-equal and nag oppose sa reaction ay yung pagkakaroon ko ng 93 at yung pagkakataon matulog on a saturday afternoon!! haha...

weird and crazy man ang week na ito... ok parin.. kasi i got a chance to talk to some of my classmates na dati akala ko mahirap i approach.. i have new friends now... and i'll greet them.

hello to: jeff alfon, jm aquino, pam, peter, al arbis, jerry-me, jackie, aiken, jay marx, alane, jo-anne at marami pa.. yung mga nakalimutan ko, sa next blog ko na lng kayo babatiin!!! ciao girl!! hahahah

thanks to: KP, Sophie, ate Pia, Kai, Chay, and Eula luvYah girLs...

Saturday, April 07, 2007

nUnG bAta pA aKo aT pAg TaNda Ko

When were still kids we often say "pag tanda ko gusto ko..." but when when were already grown up we look back to those odd things we do and say "nung bata pa ako..."

sabi ko noon sa sarili ko na PagtaNda ko gUsto ko...

1. Makapag aral sa College at Makakilala ng marami at iba't ibang klase ng tao
2. Pumunta sa Boracay
3. MaginG pRivAte NurSe ng Pitt FamiLy
4. MakAkiTa Ng MaRamiNg ceLeb or that i waNt to Be oNe oF TheM
5. Go out of town with friends/classmates
6. Live heaLthieR Life (sTay aWaY fRom anYthing Bad aNd at LeasT hAv a reGuLaR eXeRciSe)
7. Maging successful ako iN eVerYThing i Do
8. Yumaman ako (as iN yUng LoTsa LoTsa MoNey)
9. Makita koNg HapPy ang PareNts ko
10. Live A lIFe cLosEr to God

at NgaYon NgaNg MaTanda Na Ko as I look Back nasasabi ko na LaNg na nUnG bAta Ako...

1. aNg supEr duPer Likot/kuLit ko
2. MaLdiTa ako! iLang YayA aTa YunG napAaLis ko (*aaw, now i piTy TheM)
3. I was so super duper mega uber sipag to sTudy
4. I was so super duper acTive iN joiNing acaDeMic/non-AcaDeMic aCTiViTiEs
5. I was so super duper puti (nGaYon super duPer NegRa nA!!!)
6. Im rude and I answer back to my mom
7. I disObeY hoUse RuLes
8. I go oUt wiTh Kids who doEs thE daRnesT Things (thiNgs Like: say baDwords, sMoke, cuT class and etc...)
9. I disReGard tHe facT tHaT i May Get sicK if I plAy out wiThout slippers
10. I doNt pRacTice good-seLf HyGienE (i doN't usually cOmB mY hAiR, bRush mY TeEtH or EvEn to WasH hAnDs b4 aNd AfTeR eaTing)
11. I was Such a Kid who haNgs OuT wiTh The Boys and aDapt thEir wAy of Life (b4 i bLivd i wAs a Guy 'coZ i'm alwYs wiTh bUnChes of dEm)
12. Im aFrAd To LeARn NeW ThiNgs
13. I doNt go To chuRch reguLarLy

indeed all that i put up there was true. everyone (even You, the one who reads this) look back to younger years and say "ano bang mga pinag-gagawa ko nung bata ako? dati ba, ano gusto ko maging pagtanda ko?"
foolishness to say that PeoPLe don't want to go back to tHeir childhood... EvRyone wants to...
..go Back To THe TiMe wHen we are young and carefree... we don't bother what people thinks about us, we are not bothered by the growing population, we don't care about the fare hike, we don't care about money, we don't care if we skip meals, we don't care if we don't sleep... we don't value things around us.
But now tHat we are yeArs oLder tHan bEfoRe, we face reaLity. all of a suDden EvRyThiNg coUnts...
... we are always thinKing about what other people would say about how we look, what we do, how we act, where we'll go, and stuffs like that, we are very much affected with the explosive increAse in OuR popuLation, we are very sensitive when it comes to fare hikes, we worry aBout budgeting and mOney, wE skIp meaLs bEcaUSe we are all toO bUsY, we miss OuR beds because we hardLy even sLeep (sTaying up all nighT ruNNing afTer a deAdLine)... We value each moment for we have realized that any minute our life can be taken away. We thank God foR every morning we are abLe to WaKe up, wiTness The suNshIne and sTaRt a New daY fuLL oF hoPes and DreAMs...

personally, at 17 i already did some things that I wanted to do when I was Younger. I am now in College and continuously meeting different kinds of people from different walks of Life, i hAv beEn in BoRa, i aLreAdy had an Out of Town Trip wiTh my gRoupmatEs (in BaTanGas), i hav seen my paRents happy, and I have been closer to God.

there are still a lot of thins na gusto ko gawin or ma-accomplish when i get older. But all of those doesn't matter to me as of the moment. I look back in my past and I look forward to my future but it's just that. I dont live in the past or get drowned by the hopes of my future. I just live my life. Treasure each day. Thank God for the miracle i recieve every morning. Put my heart in every moment, enjoy and make the most out of it.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Guys. School. Blogs. Laguna.

Laguna.

We went in Laguna to chill (yeah!) last Saturday… all expense paid trip… (care of tita amy-thanks!!!) swimming, eating, singing, sight seeing, and everything. Cheers! ‘twas all fun. Considering that schools gonna start in a few days time we really made the most out of it.

Blogs.

I really enjoy blog hopping now. Reading thoughts, ideas, and feelings of different people (especially those who I don’t really know) really is also relaxing. Blogs are surely such works of arts. pinaghihirapan ng bloggers ang mga posts nila to share it with the public, hoping that they will get something from the posts. I hope that mine makes sense to you.

School.

Today is Monday so dalawang tulog na lang back to school na. Start na kasi ng summer classes (which is something that I look forward to-bukod sa mga interesting na subjects ay ang mga dati kong kakilala na ngayon ay magiging mga kaklase ko na!)

(the following lines were not the exact words that they said, pero most likely ganyan yun)

Sophie said: friends tayo ah, tabi tayo sa silya!
Ate Pia said: buti naman classmate na kita bhebi shinzzz!!!
KP said: pag alphabetically arranged ang seat plan, magkatabi tayo!!
Catherine said: uy! Classmate!!! See you on Wednesday!

Hehe.. I’m so nervous and excited na rin at the same time!! First impression lasts kasi eh..

Guys.

Guy # 1:
the over reacting “ex-boyfriend na” of a friend
I am someone who forwards text messages to the lists of friends found in my cell phone and in the past few days I have been sending a lot to everyone.


One day, I was shocked when this “ex-boyfriend na” texted me..

Guy#1:
“sobra na ata! Ha?! Nung una di ko lang pinapansin pero parang ngayon sobra na ata!” (he was referring to the forwarded quotes)…
so I texted him back
me:
“wala un ‘noh! Forwarded quotes lang yung mga yun.. send to list, nagkataon lang na nasa list ka kaya nakakatanggap ka…”
Guy#1: (di sya naniniwala)
Me: "
kung ayaw mo maniwala.. di wag… sorry kung natatamaan ka sa mga quotes… masyado ka naman seryoso…"
Guy#1: (wala.. kung ano anong pinagsasabi nya sa text., di talaga sya naniniwala)
Me: (masama loob ko sa kanya!)

My point here is… why would you over react over stupid quotes na ilang beses ng pinag pasapasahan ng iba’t ibang tao. My Gulay!!! For Hell’s sake… O.A. ha!!! I know how he feels when they broke up, alam ko gaano kasakit yun… pero haler?? Patulan ba ang mga quotes??? I swear never to talk to that “ex-boyfriend na” ever ever never again!! It really made me feel bad ‘noh… after all… ano nga lang ba kami sa relationship nila, kundi dakilang-taga-tago-ng-illegal-relationship-nila. Ano ba naman yun dba?? Kahit utang-na-loob wala man lang siya!! Shit sya!!!

Guy#2:
the “sikret-sikretang admirer” yata…

One night..
Me: (super duper forward forward na naman ng quotes,..)
Guy#2: (super duper comment comment sa mga sinesend kong quotes)
Me: (send pa rin quotes)
Guy#2: (he commented on one of the quotes I sent him) "kahit naman may gusto ako, masaya na ako na nakakabiruan ko sya at nakakakulitan, enuf na yun para sa araw araw kong stay sa skul…"
Me: (wondering who he was reffering to)

Ang guys talaga… minsan parang ewan!! Actually di lang pala minsan… madalas… EWAN!)

Guy#3:
“the super genius dati turned tamad na ngayon”

Me: wala lang.. I like him. I think If he likes me then kami na! joke!

Weird ba? Gusto ko lang siya isama sa list ng guys… para cute!!

Guy#4: he’s no secret.., its my “father”

Dad: "Pagbutihan mo anak ang pag-aaral mo… mahal na mahal ka namin ni mama mo!"
Me: "ginagawa ko yung best ko para di masayang paghihirap nyo. Mis u and luv u"
Dad:
"Mag-iingat ka anak sa mga lakad mo ha. Mag seryoso ng kilos, mahal na mahal ka namin ni mama mo"
Me:
"Nag-iingat ako palagi. Mahal ko din po kayo"

Text messages really means a lot to people.. specially to me dahil ang dad ko nsa ibang bansa… thru text messaging kasi para ko na rin sya nakakasama…

That’s it for now muna… antok na ako…

Shout out: happy birthday MHCRB, Ate Shella, and Neryl Ann Bugs

Friday, March 16, 2007

Champion ang kombinasyon…

Sipag at tiyaga!!
Phew!!! It’s been five long months… one semester!! One disaster!!!

Its crazy when I look back how did these five months had passed the way it did.
Really freaky… it was like dreaming a nightmare that you just want to wake up…, but upon waking up... You’ll realize that this is not a dream but it is a reality… it will eat you up until you quit. But hey!! There’s one thing I have learned in my High School…, that is when you spell “quit” it would be spelled as N-E-V-E-R as in never!! I have been a nursing student for two years (yes… two rollercoaster years!!! And oh my.., I missed high school) and I promise, quitting this course have always been an option but with so much shame with other people, I simply just can’t do it. I’m ashamed that they would think I’m a failure. I’m afraid they will think I am a loser.
Enough of the drama… October of 2006 was the month my cousins from “Switzerland” came home for vacation.., it was also the month for semestral break. It was all fun. We all did well. But all the good things have come to an end. After semestral break was the time to go back to school. Go back to reality that I am a nursing student.
(This is a breakdown of how it had been these past five months…)

November. All the first.

First Day of 2nd semester
First Day to meet new classmates
First day to be late??? WTF!!! I was late for my PE class, coz I left my registration form at home, so I had to go back… ending I’m late. Okay fine. Forgiven.
First Day to meet my new groupmates in RLE. Some old faces and some are new. It was one fine ocular inspection. Barangay Ligas 2 is our new adopted community. Here is where all the things will start to go round.
Student Nurses’ Week came from this month, and we got the chance to see Bamboo live in concert. It was just an urgent decision. We’re not suppose to watch it but upon hearing all the people scream and all excited to see bamboo, “Enviousness” made us want to buy tickets for the show, good thing there’s still some. And we are lucky enough to get into the front spot. So cool!!! It made me conclude that after all these years, may it be Rivermaya or Bamboo… Francisco Mañalac is still the coolest-hottest-greatest pinoy band vocalist ever!!!!
It was also the month when my friend Kim’s ate Kaye got married. Well, Congrats at least happy endings came true… for some.

December. It’s Christmas time.

Well, we did the interviews in the community. We all did some planning for the future activities in the community also. And Prelim examination was kinda easy with the “E” and “Z” haha… (that’s not funny though… ;p)
Christmas Vacation had never been this bowreeenngg!!! With really nowthiiiingg to do. Well… for me, I gained weight by sleeping, eating, watching tv, sitting in front of the computer for hours, eating, and sleep again. Okay, to be honest, I was a little lazy (maybe not little!! Hehe)
Christmas with the family has never been that lonely. It really made me miss all my filipino-swiss-austrian cousins. With my little sweet cousin lorraine (beshie, as we call each other, she is 8 and a half years old) wrote me a Christmas card saying “Merry Christmas ate Sheennee, Always Remember Me. Keep this in your mind and heart: I love you. Love, Lorraine.” It was indeed such a sweet message. So in return, I wrote her back and said “Merry Christmas! Would you still beshie me in the morning? (Adapted from the movie CLICK)”
It was not all that much for this month. A new year had come and it was the time for…

January. Rush Rush Rush.

We all got back to school on the 3rd of January. Planned for future activities in the community during the 4th and had some catching up with friends the whole first week of the year. We had a new professor in PE (volleyball) she is an award wining SEA Games lawn tennis medalist Ms. Belen Dante.
We met up with Barangay Ligas 2’s Barangay Officials *well, not all officials* to talk about the welfare of their community during the 11th. Then we settled to make a community health assembly a week after.
January 15th was my good high school friend Kryzzle’s Eighteenth Birthday. I went to their house that day ‘coz I would not be able to attend her so-called party on the 21st. Good thing she had two celebrations. At least I’m part of the other one. So sorry I missed one of the most important parts of your life.
January 18th came and everything went fine. The assembly was a bit disappointing at first but it ended well so it made each group members really exhausted.
January 21st was the NAT-CEM or the should-I-say battery examination, a qualifying exam before entering the college of nursing proper. It was kind of a entrance examination for the upcoming Third year students. That day was also the birthday of my super-kaduper-ever-dearest crushness Richard Gutierrez and his twin brother Raymond.
January 31st was Jonna’s debut. Wow!! (Updates for Jonna… well may boyfriend na sya. Dalaga na eh!!!) She treated us pizzas and pizzas and pizzas *with drinks of course*.
Everythings in a rush academically. School projects and paper works filled up. So… gosh!!!

February. It’s the love month… and a week with my dad. :(

On the 4th was Sophia’s birthday.
During the 7th was Hazel’s birthday.
And by the time 11th came, who else could have been as excited as me and mom.
11th was the day when my dada comes back home after a year of doing odd work in China (my father works in china as a factory worker for almost a year.)
He is just spending a week here. So we made the most out of it. Mama left work for a week to spend time with dad since he only had a short stay here. It was also the University Week / Intramurals and others so basically I also got a time off. I also did spent time with dad. It was all fun. He cleaned the whole house, from sweeping even the tiniest dust to the point of moving each household furniture to make the whole house look a little bigger. The house was basically a home with dad around. We are all cracking jokes, having all smiles, eating together, attending mass together and were simply a happy family. The house was full of noise coming from a 40-year old man’s voice making kwento about his life way back where he came from.
His short stay here made me realize how-the-hell I miss him so much. Spending most of my life with him working abroad for our family’s finances made me grew up without that certain father figure. Blaming myself for being the reason why he had to leave.
I really hate to see mama so sad that day he had to leave again. The loudness in the house was replaced by the silence made by his absence. For few days, mama and I didn’t talk, It took some time to go back to a regular routine.
It was indeed a mixed feeling without him.
But all sad things come with a happy ending. By the end of the month, my group mates and I went in Batangas to do some group study and to do a little refreshment also. We hurried up and finished the group study until midnight so that we all could have fun the day after it. We finished almost 2 am, slept for a few hours. Woked up at 7 am, had a little walk, ate breakfast and went to the ilog to swim and have fun. We all left Batangas 3pm that afternoon and then I reached home 5pm. Went to church 6pm. I’m so ashamed to catch myself sleeping during the mass, my head dropping in so much tiredness Haha…
Love month is not all for couples…, Happiness is a choice. Being single is my choice, I may not know how long will I take this as an option, but for now all I know is that being single is happy, it is my choice.

March. Defense! Defense! Defense!

March 1st was the day we had to defend the community case study we’d been up to the past month. This defense thing was also the reason why we have to make an overnight group study in Batangas. The Day was fine, I am freaking nervous but I had to show everyone I’m not. Trying to be confident presenting our work, I started to stutter and stumble words that is not familiar to both me and the panel, I made my report fast so that they won’t have any chance to ask,.. haha… then came the question and answer which I won’t elaborate much to avoid the weird feeling recalling that moment.

March is still in the process… Final Exams had just finished. 2nd year second semester has also ended, and it all left me with a smile on my face being able to know that I passed the NAT-CEM examination, I had a thousand of pesos given by my tita as a reward for being good academically, realizing I will be a regular student since I didn’t had any grade lower than the required grade, and knowing that I will come forward to the next level of this course. It will surely be hard but I always look forward to all the challenges to come.
Sorry for the long post. My… I missed blogging!!!!!!!! I wish to blog more regularly this time.