bestfriends..

whew! i cant even help it, im addicted to gossip girl and im so psyched up by the fact i can watch it online.

serena and blair?

they were best of friends..

but they can have the most historical cat fights ever.

here are some lines from the episode..
(im not sure if i got all those right..)

s: "i cannot believe you did this."
b: "like you don't deserve it?"

they fight like as if they're not gonna be friends until forever.

s: "you did not just did that."
s: "i hate that stupid headband"

haha.. what da..

but at the end of the day when they're done and tired with all the fighting. they make it up..

b: "i told them you that this is what you wanted. and what are you doing here??"
s: "doing the same thing"

blah blah blah..

b: "i can't not know you, i "don't" want to not know you"

OMFG.. they fight like demons but they settle things up like little angels..


s: "what? blair, ur my bestfriend. what's mine is yours."
b: "we cannot share this."
s: "we'll find a way.. together."



haii.. im excited for the next catfight. i mean im excited for the upcoming episodes pa..

hihi.. ^_^

and then..

all of a sudden.

i was numb..

i dont even wanna look on my cellphone if there are some text messages,
i dont even wanna open my pc to look for sumthing new (which before i usually do)
i dont even wanna answer any calls..
i dont even wanna read anything..
i dont wanna hear any news..

i dont even wanna eat..

i cant sleep.

im not gonna be surprised if one day i'll be tired of breathing.

this isn't supposed to happen,

..but it did anyways.








was i not feeling anyhting?



or was it that i was just to hurt to feel any more pain?

idk.

much as i wanted to blogg..

it hurts so much..

i dont wanna hate guys coz i have guy friends..



but why do "SOME" of them do this..


..they tell u they like u and then the next moment they're gone

..they express how much they wanted things between you and them can work out but never really exerted the effort to prove their words

..they say they're gonna come when they actually have a lot of reasons why they wouldn't

..they flirt. they simply flirt.

with you, with everyone, with a friend.

(haters.)


i dont want to hate men.


so please. dont give me reasons to do so.

he told me he wasn't ready for a relationship..

..i told her so.

i told her to wait.

i always knew he'd hurt her.

i couldn't do anything.
i couldn't even tell her that i knew it.
i want to comfort her. she's my bestfriend.
he's also my friend. he's our friend.


and now he's with someone else.


we all could move on.

i know we could.


we should.


*sighs*